Website Description

Web 1.0

This is an old school informational website

Website Overview

I have created these websites to introduce you to my philosophy, the School of the Stuffed Toy. I am its first student, Zenjamin (or Ben Huot), the Not Guru of the Cloudy Diamonds. The ultimate goal of this school of philosophy it to achieve the same relaxation as that of the stuffed toy. My stuffed toy bear Fred says I don't have Schizophrenia, but he does.

But, on the serious side, my website is designed to stimulate free thinking as I never did nor never will want to be a leader or even opinion leader. What I want is for you to take responsibility for your own ideas and refrain from merely recycling my own.

Mental Illness

I also have Schizophrenia since I was enlisted in the regular US Army for a little over a year. I have lived with this mental illness, for 25 years now, mostly living on my own, but with great help from my family, continually taking my medicine and having God in my life.

I have written about this as well for those encountering similar issues as well as those with loved ones with similar diagnoses. It would have really helped me if I had this information, when I was first diagnosed with Schizophrenia around the year 2000.

The Boring Life

I am the world's most boring man. I actually advocate living a boring life as it is safer, healthier, and ages better. As we get older and learn more about the world, we realize how nice we have it here in America and have little need or desire to travel the world or go on lavish vacations. Most the problems we have in America have very boring solutions, but we won't solve them because we want to work on exciting ones.

The best things in life involve God, friends, family, and pets. We don't need to have a lot of money to find joy in life. The best lives are thought through carefully and reflected on often. Learning, creating, and living better are some of the best activities.

That being said I am thankful I have enough to provide for myself. Not everyone does, even in America. And just being American citizens with today's technology puts us on the level of living once only experienced by royalty. For all the things we fear of the future in many ways life is still great in my part of the world.

Therefore don’t be afraid of them, for there is nothing covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the darkness, speak in the light; and what you hear whispered in the ear, proclaim on the housetops. Don’t be afraid of those who kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul. Rather, fear him who is able to destroy both soul and body in Gehenna.