About My Websites: Benjamin-Newton.com and Cloudy.diamonds

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Two Websites - One Person

Welcome, visting human, pet, toy, or automated software.

I have created these websites to introduce you to my philosophy, the School of the Stuffed Toy. I am its first student, Zenjamin (or Ben Huot), the Not Guru of the Cloudy Diamonds. The ultimate goal of this school of philosophy it to achieve the same relaxation as that of the stuffed toy. My stuffed toy bear Fred says I don't have Schizophrenia, but he does.

But, on the serious side, my website is designed to stimulate free thinking as I never did nor never will want to be a leader or even opinion leader. What I want is for you to take responsibility for your own ideas and refrain from merely recycling my own.

My writing is very religious, and biblical, (much of it is poetry) but it has something extra to it. Some people call this Zen (more precisely it is Philosophical Taoism) combined with my understanding of Christian Existentialism. I also incorporate ideas from other great mystical thinkers from the ancient, premodern, and early modern historical periods that I feel don't contradict the Bible. Most of these writings can be distributed as long as you do not change anything, according to their individual creative commons licenses.

I also have created a large collection of vector graphics by myself over the last 2 decades. I allow people to use and create variations on some of these, provided they follow the corresponding creative commons licenses. I have even experimented with some simple arrangements of royalty free music I bought previously.

I have done the entire website myself and am almost entirely self taught using mostly freely available resources of the Internet. I have changed it very frequently since July 1998. I have now given away the base code I use for it, that does all the "boring stuff" behind the scene things like typography and layout. The one condition is you give me credit somewhere for it (a comment in the code is enough), according to the creative commons license referred to there.

I also have Schizophrenia since I was enlisted in the regular US Army for a little over a year. I have lived with this mental illness, for over 20 years now, mostly living on my own, but with great help from my family, continually taking my medicine and having God in my life. I have written about this as well for those encountering similar issues as well as those with loved ones with similar diagnoses. It would have really helped me if I had this information, when I was first diagnosed with Schizophrenia, in December 1999.

God Has Feelings Too

General Website Information

This is an Old School Informational website

Complete Academic Non-Fiction Books on:

  1. Highly Sensitive People
  2. Learning Discipline
  3. Living with Schizophrenia
  4. Military Experiences
  5. Traditional Ethics
  6. Christian Theology
  7. Chinese Philosophy
  8. World History
  9. Book Recommendations
  10. Disaster Survival

General Book Statistics

  • 3,022 pages of unique text written over 21 years
  • average of 1 essay or poem written every week for over 21 years
  • average of 144 pages written every year for over 21 years

General Graphics Statistics

  • 1,606 vector graphics created over 21 years
  • average of over 1 vector graphic created every week for over 21 years
  • average of 76 vector graphics created every year for over 21 years

General Information About Me

I am from and live in Eugene, Oregon (America)

I am the webmaster of 2 websites, which includes the benjamin-newton.com and the cloudy.diamonds domains.

These websites all serve different purposes or audiences, but both share one thing in common: they are all created by me and are about me and my mission/ministry. I am the webmaster, so that I not only create everything on these websites, but also have designed and done all the technical things, to make this site work well, on a wide range of the most popular devices.

I have worked on all this for 21 years now, while understanding that I would never make any money off of it, as my niche is too small.

Thanks to God for the Good Parts of my Website, Books, Designs, and Graphics

Cloudy.diamonds Theme and Quotes with Explanation

Hand in Hand with God

The explanation for the .diamonds (like a sword) part of the website domain name: a diamond is sharper than a sword and is used to cut things in industrial usage.

For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart. Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do. Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession. For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

--Hebrews 4:12-16

The explanation for the cloudy (opposite of brightness) part of the website domain name: it is often cloudy where I live. God the Father can only be seen as a brightness inside a kind of cloud as looking at Him directly would kill us.

God, who at sundry times and in divers manners spake in time past unto the fathers by the prophets, Hath in these last days spoken unto us by his Son, whom he hath appointed heir of all things, by whom also he made the worlds; Who being the brightness of his glory, and the express image of his person, and upholding all things by the word of his power, when he had by himself purged our sins, sat down on the right hand of the Majesty on high: Being made so much better than the angels, as he hath by inheritance obtained a more excellent name than they.

--Hebrews 1:1-4

Benjamin-Newton.com Theme and Quotes with Explanation

Creativity in Philosophy, Not Theology

The explanation for the website theme of "clarity". This is the one theme and purpose that joins together everything on both of my websites: communication of ideas, as in being direct, clear and concise in my writing, so as to avoid ambiguity.

Follow after charity, and desire spiritual gifts, but rather that ye may prophesy. For he that speaketh in an unknown tongue speaketh not unto men, but unto God: for no man understandeth him; howbeit in the spirit he speaketh mysteries. But he that prophesieth speaketh unto men to edification, and exhortation, and comfort. He that speaketh in an unknown tongue edifieth himself; but he that prophesieth edifieth the church.

--1 Corinthians 14:1-4

And even things without life giving sound, whether pipe or harp, except they give a distinction in the sounds, how shall it be known what is piped or harped? For if the trumpet give an uncertain sound, who shall prepare himself to the battle? So likewise ye, except ye utter by the tongue words easy to be understood, how shall it be known what is spoken? for ye shall speak into the air. There are, it may be, so many kinds of voices in the world, and none of them is without signification. Therefore if I know not the meaning of the voice, I shall be unto him that speaketh a barbarian, and he that speaketh shall be a barbarian unto me.

--1 Corinthians 14:7-11

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