I was born with a lot of anger. I screamed as a baby, constantly. Later, I was silly to cover the anger. Then I entered the military and I became very serious, before even getting to Basic Training. I then stayed that way for years after I left the military.
The thing that angers me most today is when others suffer, whether animals or people, and there is any other way (and there usually is). The things that makes me less angry is prayer and thinking about how relaxed animals are.
Currently, our country is resembling the plots of 1984 and Animal Farm (by George Orwell). Implementing this dystopia has been in progress for at least my whole lifetime. I have lived in a church culture that is highly controversial, very vocal, and very white. I have attended both as a child for 20 years and now as an adult for the past 5 years. When I see them do things that alienate non-believers, so that the Church suffers and the spread of the Gospel is slowed down, my blood begins to boil.
There seems to be a lot of anger in this group as well. There is a recent attempt to down play the divisions in this church and to avoid talking about politics from the leadership. The extreme ideas prevalent on social media have radicalized the church members.
This movement is spreading like a grass roots phenomenon, but it was very deliberately crafted many years ago. It has been building over decades, funded by one of our historic enemy nations and big oil. The same divisions have been present along similar lines going back to our nations founding.
There was a huge increase in the divisions of my country, when reporters showed us a glimpse of what the Cold War looked like, in what we now call the Majority World. The fallout from the feud with the other major power of that era has united much of the Majority World. Ideology is very important internationally and just like it is basically impossible to survive completely by yourself or off grid, without outside support, so it is for a nation.
The most important thing, in getting along with the world, is your reputation or ideology and how consistent you follow it. Our social contract with the world is like many others before us: the world is more peaceful under our watch. When we do things to jeopardize this message, our influence that we have over the world and the success of our military operations are compromised as well.
One of the reasons our adversary, during the Cold War, could compete with us was a plausible message that they were on the side of the poor and marginalized. They appeared to many in the third world as a better alternative. Many thought that because the other major power that was much more aggressive and motivated mostly by money.
So this connection with Victorian Age morals and culture and the Church does little to spread the Gospel in my country, as well as the Majority World. But many have now realized that there is little in common between the modern world system and Christianity.
America is not mentioned in prophecy. This might be because it is the evil empire run by the devil, called Mystery Babylon. It also might be because North America is likely the only place that will still be able to support human life 100 years from now. I am trying to see how God is in control of this, even though the future looks very apocalyptic.
-- October 2025