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Complete Psychological Topics 4


by Ben Huot

October 31, 2019

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As It Is or As It Should Be, An Epic Poem


Walking Forward

So cold and so dark

An empty calm

A simple choice

A dedication to a plan

A complete course of action

Across the vast expanse

Lonely and windy

Small lights far away

Step by slow step

A great weight to carry

My destination years away

How far can one’s mind imagine

In each one of my thoughts

I pass a sign

I only know what to do

When I get there

The journey is all only within my own mind

Tracing circles with feet and hands

The process is the outcome

A relaxed walking stride

An empty but serious expression

The land is flat

With hills and valleys

My walk is straightforward

But my thinking never is

Varieties of Loyalty

Is it crazier to think God doesn’t exist

Or that I do not exist

Is it crazier to not follow My Creator

Or not to follow my own way

We fail to ask the right questions

We are too much in a hurry

To even stop talking and fighting

There are greater things to fight for

Then just political processes

There are loyalties that stretch

Far beyond our own place and time

We think that the most important lines

Are the ones people make on paper

We divide our spoils across

Mountains, rivers, and straight lines

We fear that another group

Just like our own

Will tell us what to do

Is it ever worth it

To suffer for other people

To merely serve under another name

We think we can find a solution

But the situation will need to resolve itself

Many will survive the process

But few people will be alive afterwards

Internal Struggle

Why does my heart hurt so much

Why does the pain have no cause

Can you hurt for lack of something

Can you succeed by letting go

Is not the greatest obstacle

Our own lack of self control

How do you fight the enemy

When it lives within you

Weapons made by people

Are only effective against other people

But what do you do

When your feud is between your heart and mind

It is often for those who learn to be strong

To hold their heart in captivity to their mind

But how do we define success in self-mastery

When we cannot even define what it means to be rational

What if the crazy is in your heart and not your mind

What if your mind is not strong enough

To hold your heart within its grasp

How can you win

When you cannot even imagine what that would mean

Fear of What

What is your greatest fear

Is is your country or yourself

We think that the way forward

Is through mastery of technology

But our technology will only enslave us

Because it is what we created

By our own hands to we sink or swim

We may seek swords or mobs of police

To make us feel safe

But it is by our own minds that we will suffer most

You think that a police state is the worst possible outcome

The worst situation is to be captive to your own rotten heart

We think that as we climb higher on the social ladder

The freer we become

But freedom comes from a clear mind and a disciplined heart

The greatest fear for most is pain

The greatest pain for some is fear

Is not the key to wisdom the pursuit of balance

What is more important to control

Your inner or outer life

But who should rule within

Should the mind dominate the heart

Or the heart control the mind

Everlasting Life

We think within our own page of history

But even this book holds only so many pages

Let us try to think beyond this earth, this galaxy, or this universe

Look beyond what we can see with our eyes or even our minds

Beyond the limits of linear time

Into things not driven by cause and effect

How can we really resolve to live in peace

If we can still have make choices and there are still consequences of our actions

We have lived long enough to become better people

But we have not and so we never will

How can people live for eternity without war or any conflict

How can we accept our differences are not enough to suffer or make others suffer

We just cannot get beyond human nature

It is not because we cannot but that we choose not to

What would morality look like if time did not exist?

Society of Facts

Pile upon pile of paper

Digital file upon digital folder

Our records are in constant flux

We have ceased to be able to distinguish fact from fiction

One minute all this exists

The other minute money no longer exists

One minute a country has a history

The next minute it is forgotten

The meaning of our words

And even the very words we speak and write with

Are no longer within our control

How can you believe in absolutes about laws and countries

When they have become nothing more than

Bullet points in a presentation or cells in a spreadsheet

When people no longer bother to learn

What happens when the truth shifts or simply disappears

How can we live life as we know it

When we do not know who did what

When we know nothing for certain

A society based on facts only works

When you can agree on what those are

If there is no source of truth

How do you know what is real and what is not

Forever War

What is a person to do today

Who believes in something

Who has unique ideas

Or who has a different perspective

It is hard to consider all possibilities

When only two views are represented

It is hard to find truth

When the only truth people know

Is what they want to hear

When your mind is shut

You can no longer learn anything

But it is hard to hear what someone is saying

When they scream and curse at the top of their lungs

It is only in a quiet space

With time and room to think

That we can start to form ideas

That are not just the same

Or the exact opposite of what we are told

When there are only two points of view allowed

And they each have the same amount of sensibility

And an evenly divided population of followers

This is the recipe for a war the will only end

When one side no longer lives

Society for the Mentally Ill

What would it be like

To be in a society designed for the mentally ill

A society where people never knew what was real

A society where you could not trust what is right in front of you

A society where you would depend upon others to look after you and tell you how to live

A society where you would be accepted as normal no matter how paranoid you were

A society where you see someone with symptoms of mentally illness as a capable leader

A society where fear is valued and respected

A society that would rather run from a fight than suffer for no reason

A society where you would not accept what you hear at face value

A society where you cannot own a weapon for any reason

A society where you never know what would happen next

A society who knew true fear enough that would not pay for horror stories

A society where no one would be fit for military service

A society that would have to accept that some people are not going to sacrifice themselves for the greater good of everyone else

A society where people would be afraid to speak up for what is right out of fear if society’s reaction


Psychology Poetry


Does it Scare You?

Does it scare you

To know I am mentally ill

It scares me being mentally ill

When your mind is gone

You don’t think less

When you cannot direct your thoughts

And you cannot understand the actions of others

It is like being an outsider in the truest sense

How can a person live in a society trusting no one

How can a person find purpose

When others blame them for society’s evil

How can a person find love when they are too different

It is easy to accept a person who has only cosmetic differences

As in someone of a different skin color

It is easy to accept a person whose only difference is

Who they call on when they struggle with life

It is in the mind that our civilization exists

And when this is lost

How does a person act like a person

Who are we apart from our place in society

You do not fully exist

Unless you have an environment to live in

You can only feel accepted

When you can trust your own feelings

It is not a situation that can be solved

Creativity only stretches so far

And only some specific social conventions can be shunned

In the depths of everyone’s mind

Lies the possibility for us to forget

Who we should be

Even when we still know who we are

We are no different in heart and spirit

And often we only look slightly different

But our minds are in a constant whirlwind of strange ideas

And the world is very different

Than life before the break

They say life changes everything

But mental illness changes you

Not everyone else

An outsider to every joke

Where misunderstandings are routine

You continue to self talk or just ignore your crazy ideas

It is only in your sleep

That you feel normal and safe

How can you accept who you are

When you never feel full

And never feel rested

Why do the same things bother you

When you know better

Why can’t you decide what you want to be afraid of

Other minorities feel empowered after counseling

But you never do

The only reason you are not locked up still

Is because it saves them money


Building Momentum

True fear

Is when you cannot trust

Your own mind

Or the voices therein

True cynicism

Only comes from experience

True doubt

Comes from your own failures

How do web start

Climbing upwards

From where we are

As a society

To where we want to be

As individuals

Looking inwards is difficult

And making better choices

Is near impossible

Are we really so bad

Or is our society just too tempting

How do you remain above water

When the waves of desire

Nearly pull you under

With the persistence of a spider

Trying to climb out of porcelain

With the intensity of a political argument

In the spirit of a tai chi master

With the subtle movement of a plant growing

With the gentleness of a hug by a stuffed toy

In the hand of God Himself

With nothing on our minds but our Savior

It is not in fighting

That you achieve the best victory

The better victory

Is in never having to hurt or sacrifice anyone

While we emphasize the power of evil

The biggest determining factor is our own will

Is it enough to just never give up

Or is there a special strength that can be tapped into

The only weapon a Christian has is his Bible

The only one we really trust is the Lord

With each step

It is more painful

And each setback more discouraging

Is it in failure that we try learn

Is there anyway to stand united

Within our own hearts, minds, and wills

If we cannot decide definitely the goal of the endeavor

How can be begin a major journey

How do we know what to learn

If we don’t know what we are working towards

It is only in amount of clarity

That we can see past our own desires

It is only in a series of greater and greater changes

That we can start to build momentum

It is only possible to go towards where we decided

When we see no other way

It is a delicate balance of God and us

A tightly created choreography

Fear and Society

Few people understand fear

Few people experience fear

Outside the occasional dream

Or Halloween season movie

Fear gives you energy at first

But over time it tires you to the core

The medicine is very tiring

But adrenaline can be too

What prepared me best for Schizophrenia

Was my military experience

I was constantly tired

And I never got enough sleep

I was constantly terrified

And I felt close to God

The military is a hard life

So much is expected out of you

And the penalties are so enormous

But the people are the best

An army base is the most depressing

Place in the world to live

But they are filled with churches

Schizophrenia's symptoms are much like an addiction

Schizophrenia often shares a person with other disorders

The same people often suffer from depression, anxiety,

obsessive compulsive disorder, trouble sleeping, and tremors

Fixation is one big part of Schizophrenia

Like a person with autism

One of the common fixations is religion

Religion should be important to us all

But there is a kind of special connection we have to God

All jumbled up and confused but still very real

God always seems closer when you need Him most

And social thinking often makes God less real to many people

With each year, I feel more awake

The disease has progressed little in 20 years for me

I think I understand better all the time

Why people react the way they do

When you do different things

It is like being a hunter gatherer

Meeting modern society

I understand feelings and spiritual things

But some of the subtlety to how people talk

Is hard for me to pick up on quick or naturally

And I learn all the time

How to be more gentle, careful, and responsible

Ironically, I may be specially suited to life after

The End of The World As We Know It

No one trusts anyone anymore

Everybody is starting to believe in conspiracy theories

They do not know how to be sure of anything

They realize that life is not rational

They are getting ready for surviving scams and disasters

They are becoming closer to those they share view with

They are forming networks and using non-traditional communications

They are saying less and becoming more reserved

They are becoming more sarcastic and cynical

This is the best time in history to be mentally ill

Maybe we will even be some sort of trusted advisors

The Collapse (Being Exhausted as a Person with Schizophrenia)

What does it mean to be as tired as a person with Schizophrenia

Like a marathon runner who cannot drink any water

While he thirsts beyond measure

Like a soldier crawling through the sand and mud

On his belly everyday without kneepads

Like a wrestler starving and dehydrating himself

For the next competition

Like an addict on his last binge

Like when you drink too much

And only make it back to the bathroom just in time

Like a fan waiting days in life for

Tickets to his favorite band in his town

Like a boy scout after spending all day putting up tents

Finally able to sit down after dark


When you can sleep all day

And still be tired

A kind of weariness that goes down to the bone

When you have to pry your eyes open

To stay awake

When you can barely accomplish

Just one thing a day


When you cannot keep from running into things

And your hand shaking uncontrollably

When you have a hard time getting up in time

To go to the bathroom when you are asleep

When you cannot trust your attention

Long enough to heat your dinner

When you are so tired you cannot unwind enough to get to sleep

Like when you have been fasting or staying awake for 3 days straight


When it is stressful just to listen

To the words of a song

When waiting an hour for a movie is painful

When you cannot sit through a class you enjoy

When you cannot stay awake long enough

To finish watching your favorite show

When you cannot stay alert long enough to play a board game

When you are too tired to complete a paper craft


Like after taking long walks in the rain

And having to wear the same clothes that whole day

Like when going on a diet where all you can eat is salad

When you do not have enough patience to take care of a plant

When you realize it is the medicine that makes you too tired

To remember to take the medicine


What is and What is Not

Some roads are not worth going down

Some things are better left unsaid

Some things are not even speakable

Some things you cannot even imagine

Some people are not worth talking to

Some people you should never anger

Some people you should never challenge

Some situations are not worth experiencing

Some things are better left for others

Some things will save you that you do not understand

You cannot always believe what you plainly see

Some times it is better not to understand why

Some times it will be fear that saves you

There is a reason for everything

Everything has already been planned

We are all actors following a script

Speaking words that are not our own

And doing things we do not want to

There are many levels to understand

There are many levels to some secrets

Some dreams you are not meant to pursue

Some goals are not worth achieving

Some things are so clear that you can see nothing else

Some things are so obvious that you cannot stop tripping over them

We worry so much abut the things we cannot change

And fail to doubt what we think appears before us

God can make things very clear

He can also make doors that cannot be opened by anyone

We all doubt His very existence at times

But some things can only be explained by His presence

He is not just present in everything

He is invulnerable to any trick or power

He created those things that think they can deceive Him

Those that plan against Him are truly foolish

Everyone serves His purposes

Some just delude themselves

Others worship Him as the One True Thing

Everything else doesn’t really exist

We count God’s power and reality

But maybe it would make better sense to doubt our own

We teach children to be creative and know no limitations

But there are many situations you can get trapped in

And many doors you cannot close

Once your brain has sustained certain kinds of damage

There is only so much you can do to compensate

We are not dolls or action heroes

And fixing us is not as easy as using glue or thread

You can be broken in only a way your Creator can fix

Sometimes there are deeper reason for things

And something worse would happen if you were healed

Much as fear can save your life

Sometimes our illnesses and pain keep worse things from happening

It is important to understand that things can always get worse

And you can resolve one problem only to find yourself in greater one

We believe whatever we think we see in front of us

And doubt our beliefs and values

Who is more real

You or God

That is one of the few questions worth asking

If you can answer that question and live your life by it

You may have found the meaning of life

But you get no special insights in return

Nothing more than those who could never understand

You think you can avoid choosing between God and you

You are already standing before Him

You are not going anywhere

Because you are already there

Blind us to this world

That we may see nothing but your face

Give us the strength to merely survive until Your return

Give us the will to resist until the day we die

Sometimes it is better to forget

Then to know to avoid something

From some injuries you will not recover


Will it Ever Get Easier?

In the instant

It takes to strike a match

To light a candle

So the answers

Come in the utter darkness of my soul

In the depths of a winter night

In an empty feel of grass

A bit of trash shines brilliantly

Pointing towards a better tomorrow

It is like living your life again

Starting as a child

With the smells of crayons and peanut butter

The sound of a ball hitting the ground

Learning again what it means

To discover something for the first time

Sometimes we glorify a return to humble beginnings

It is a romantic notion to think we can recover our direction

While keeping our freedom as can adult

Freedom and direction swirling together like orange and vanilla

It is like when I first left for basic training

When there was still hope in the world

Where we still thought it possible

To solve our problems through human means

The late 90s before the official start of the war

Between the US and the south central part of the world

When global warming could have conceivably been avoided

When we still thought our government cared

And that people still treated each other with respect

Where there were still limits to what we did and didn’t say

A short time of peace for my country

Where we had won the last great war

It is a kind of timeless mythical era of peace

Soldiers are often considered brave and strong

But winning modern wars does not allow for this

The modern army wants conformity and no critical thinking

They want you to be gullible and lack the desire to ask questions

It does not matter what we want in the modern world

Things are decided beforehand

And then the public makes a symbolic vote

That even in its irrelevance reaffirms that

What is easy is what is considered right

The young and uneducated want the easy route

In an effort to not offend anyone and get buy in from the people

To send their children to suffer in and because of war

We manufacture this ridiculous link between God and country

If we want to change history we need to study more than the last 2 centuries

To study only ancient and modern history

Is like not reading the middle 90% of a novel

If we truly want to serve God, we have to think beyond politics

You cannot have 2 masters — choose Christ or people


Perfectly Balanced Life

My life is perfectly calm

Even my dreams are entirely peaceful

People expect the mentally ill

To not act like they are mentally ill

I know how to follow orders

I always try to blend in

I am always completely balanced

I always draw only rainbows and hearts

Even in my dreams I am always upbeat

I express myself in controlled words

Even my thoughts are always steady

I am always stable and ok

Even in my strongest emotions

I never break a blank look on my face

I feel only mild happiness

I never encounter difficult feelings or situations

I am never in need of help

I would never accidentally step on a weed

I would never raise an eyebrow

I will never mispronounce a word

I will never be angry or afraid

After all, I would never be someone

You need to deal differently with

I would never overreact or overstate things

I would never be sarcastic

Under any conditions



Pain is Real

Pain is real because the brain is real. Our reality is experienced in our brain. In too many problems in life, learning makes us better at things.


Forgetting things is just as useful. Sometimes a little rebellion can be better than always following everything you are told. Too much humility can be a problem too.


But being more ambitious and a lot more perceptive is not a bad thing either. Some things in life do not have a lot of instructions for them because there is a mystery in their very nature. Why can pain be so variable? Emotions are too.


If you believe it is real, it is happening, and if you fight it, it sometimes grows stronger. Why can Americans not treat pain? This is probably because we cannot relax. We think we have all these responsibilities to the world that we forget about those for ourselves.


Maybe once we accept there is no solution, a solution will come. How do we accept that of all the evil in the world very little can be changed by our will alone? It is great to be strong willed and have definite opinions, but there is something as too much work.


Taking on burdens we do not need to do can add unnecessary stress to our lives. Pain is not easy because life is not easy. It is not fair and it is not even, just as it is with evil. Some people never experience much pain, but some people never have a way to express themselves adequately.


Maybe it is not that we expect too much out of life, but that we expect too much out of ourselves. Maybe the only thing we can do to experience less pain is to do less. If we have achieved the level that we do what is best for others at our own expense, maybe we need to go in the other direction.


Ultimately, we are going to have problems no matter what we do, but, in general, a happy life has balance. This is something Americans know little about. It is not about being good enough or finding the right formula. To some people, it might be easier as their minds can be tricked because it is easier to fool them.


Getting control of your brain is like getting control of your tongue. You have to let go to a certain degree. Just a tiny change in accepting your place in the world can make a profound difference.


You can miss the point because it is so elusive and such a small target. Instead of trying, try giving up. It is only after failure that we can accept our limitations. Once you accept that you will have pain in life, maybe it will be less.


Once you give up trying to find answers, the answer will be revealed. It is not about doing or not doing. It is something more elusive: peace with the world and peace with yourself.


How do we achieve that? I certainly don’t know. Maybe that is the first step.


We can always do more. Sometimes the answer is to do less.

Disability Not Powers

Schizophrenia is less about fighting against paranoia than simply taking your medicine and letting it work. Counseling is considered ineffective with Schizophrenia as a primary treatment. It does not work to try to convince a person with Schizophrenia that their delusions and paranoia are not real, because their brain is telling them something different. A person in a wheelchair can fight back about being able to walk and try to overcome this disability too, but most people would not expect them to be able to walk, no matter how hard they tried.


Schizophrenia does not give you any special powers or give you any special understanding of life anymore than someone who has had another traumatic life experience like being homeless, being in the military, or living in the third world. Schizophrenia is truly life changing and definitely gives you another view of reality, but it is not heroic nor does it give you any special insights on the human condition.


Schizophrenia is a disability. Surely you can do your best to cope if you take your medicine. But even though it makes you a very different person and you can still accomplish significant things, the illness itself never gives you anything positive. You cannot expect the same things you did before the illness like a person with diabetes cannot eat the same as they did before they were diagnosed, without very bad results.


Schizophrenia sounds interesting to doctors and care workers, but people do not understand what it is like. The working poor often get jealous because they think not having to work a job would make life much easier. The thing I desire to do more than anything else is work a simple job. If you describe mustard gas clinically it doesn’t sound that bad, but experiencing it is hell on earth.


The difference between being stressed out, fearful, and suffering anxiety does not mean you have Schizophrenia. The magnitude of the symptoms and the specific symptoms you experience have to fit certain criteria that only a psychiatrist can diagnose.


Schizophrenia is no jackpot. Most people who have Schizophrenia cannot live without major assistance. For instance, someone else controls your money. Over several decades of having Schizophrenia, a significant portion of those people commit suicide. There is also a huge degree of depression both as a direct symptom of the disease and also having to cope with a major life illness you will never recover from.


Schizophrenia is a very lonely illness because you are so paranoid and stressed out be being with more than one other person that you cannot maintain friendships. You make very little money from the government and life is little better than being homeless or in the military. It takes many years to realize you have a mental illness, be diagnosed and get enough government services so that you are not homeless as well.


Many things you enjoyed before are not usually not possible. Most people with Schizophrenia cannot read as they did before the illness. People with mental illness are usually single their whole lives. They live in poor communities and are often the victims of crimes.


They are constantly hungry no matter how much they eat and tired no matter how much they sleep. The medicine is not good for you long term and actually causes diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart disease. You are constantly under a huge amount of stress and so get a variety of health problems that are stress related. People with Schizophrenia also fixate on one thing, cannot control their money, and exhibit various obsessive compulsive disorders. Most of the mentally ill are overweight and have poor personal hygiene.


People with Schizophrenia are denied the right to bear arms in the United States. Despite not being anymore violent than anyone else, the mentally ill do not have good experiences with the police. If you are considered a harm to yourself or others or do not keep your house clean enough, you can be forcibly be committed. You can also be forced to take your medicine, which is not done with any other disease.


Most of those in the medical profession and even psychiatry prescribing medicine know little about mental illness more than how the medicine works and even know little about basic concepts in psychology. Many people offering services for those who are mentally ill are not very responsible or even try to understand how the mentally ill think. They add additional stress because they are not aware of what is reasonable to expect of the mentally ill.


You get so little money from the government so that you are entirely dependent on government services. These services are one of the first things that gets cut when government does budget cuts. The developmentally disabled get huge amounts of money and are given huge amount of freedom compared to the mentally ill. People physically disabled get huge funding from the government to compensate for those who are blind or cannot walk or are just old.


It is important to understand that there is a huge difference between being evil and being insane. Most of the mentally ill are victims of crimes, not criminals. The key to treatment is to get the mentally ill to take their medicine, but it is the medicine itself that makes you so tired and apathetic that you have trouble remembering to take your medicine.


The key to fixing life for the mentally ill are some of the things that would help most people who are poor for a variety of reasons. More low income housing, better bus services, public health care and some solution to the homeless problem would help the mentally ill. The problem is that it takes money and everything today is political, even math and science, and money always is.


Interview with a Toy

Where are you from?

I was made in China


Who do you work for?

The herd


How old are you?

Very old in stuffed toy years


What is your 5 year plan?

Keep myself soft and clean


What do you do when your person is gone?

Total anarchy


What do you do for fun?

Take a ride in the washing machine


What is your favorite book?

The Bible reads itself to us


Do you travel?

Not much as people don’t do extensive search and rescue for stuffed toys


What is your greatest fear?



How is your health?

I cannot move


Do you have a lot of friends?

In which room?


What is your favorite animal?



Who is your favorite super hero?

Depends on what costume I got for Christmas


What kind of music do you like?

Farm animal sounds


Why do you do to relax?

We are petted


What causes do you support?

Ending pinatas at parties

Ending homelessness for stuffed toys


What is it like to be a stuffed toy?



How do you address a stuffed toy correctly?

It depends on his seniority


What is the hardest thing you had to do?

Giving up our army, navy, and air force


What do you do with your person?



What do you do for emergencies?

We have magic savings


Funny Christmas List

for the Mentally Ill Person in Your Life

General Directions

  1. Nothing Sharp
  2. Nothing Flammable



  1. Duct Tape
  2. Tinfoil
  3. Emergency Supply of Freeze Dried Dinners
  4. Gas Powered Electrical Generator
  5. Bug Out Bag



  1. Comic Books
  2. Sci Fi Novels
  3. SAS Survival Guide
  4. Religious Texts
  5. Newly Declassified Information
  6. Martial Arts and Close Combat Manuals
  7. Youtube Conspiracy Videos



  1. Bulletin Board
  2. String
  3. Highlighter
  4. Sticky Notes
  5. Lazer Pointer
  6. Stock Photos (Royalty Free) and Clipart


Fire Security

  1. Fire Safe
  2. Surge Protectors
  3. Firefighter Fireproof Tent
  4. Fire Extinguisher


People Security

  1. Inkpad and Fingerprint Duster
  2. Humane Live Animal Trap
  3. Pet Tarantula
  4. Sound Proof Room
  5. Paper Shredder


Other Security

  1. Waterproof Dry Box
  2. Glow Sticks
  3. Giant Flashlight



  1. Respirator
  2. Pills to Treat Exposure to Nuclear Radiation
  3. Air Purifier
  4. Water Purifier
  5. Hand Sanitizer
  6. Mosquito Net



  1. White Noise Machine
  2. Yoga Mat
  3. Incense Burner
  4. Meditation CDs
  5. Chemical Hand Warmers
  6. Antacids
  7. Saline Eye Drops



  1. Drone
  2. Professional Camera
  3. Binoculars
  4. Listening Devices
  5. Microscope
  6. Metal Detector
  7. Encrypted USB Flash Drive
  8. Gold DVDrs
  9. Uninterrupted Power Supply
  10. Night Vision Gear
  11. Infrared Goggles



  1. “When to Cut the Cord” Form
  2. Last Will and Testament
  3. $100 Religious Doctorate



  1. Crown
  2. Dark Sunglasses
  3. Paper Mask
  4. Non-Latex Gloves
  5. Cape
  6. Commando Camouflage for Sharpshooters
  7. Pick Pocket Proof Pants
  8. Boots with Steel Toes



  1. Area 51 Collectibles
  2. Worst Case Scenario Board Game
  3. Grappling Hook
  4. Parkour Training (moving over obstacles like a cat burglar)



  1. Passport Photo
  2. Safety Deposit Boxes in Switzerland
  3. Arial Map of Middle East and Home Town
  4. Ancient Egyptian Language Learning Software



  1. Foreign Coins
  2. Gold Bars
  3. Precious Jewels